Speaker A
Losing friends since I was young, I ain't want to go to college, I said for school and I had picked up a gun.
A raw and emotional rap about loss, pain, and struggles with depression, drugs, and violence from a life in the streets.
Key Takeaways
- The song highlights the emotional toll of growing up in a violent and unstable environment.
- It sheds light on mental health struggles, including depression and suicidal ideation.
- The artist uses his music to express vulnerability and the complexity of his experiences.
- Themes of loyalty, loss, and survival are central to the narrative.
- The track serves as a raw portrayal of street life and its psychological impact.
What the video covers
- The artist reflects on losing friends and family from a young age, including the death of his father at 14.
- He describes his struggles with juvenile detention, drug use, and suicidal thoughts.
- The song conveys deep emotional pain, numbness, and feelings of loneliness and depression.
- There are references to violence, including carrying guns and retaliating against enemies.
- The artist talks about the impact of losing loved ones and witnessing traumatic events.
- He expresses a sense of hopelessness but also a desire to protect and provide for his family.
- The lyrics reveal the challenges of growing up in a harsh environment and coping with trauma.
- The artist mentions conversations with close friends and the importance of brotherhood.
- There is a recurring theme of mistrust and feeling unloved or unsupported by others.
- The song ends with a somber reflection on the possibility of death and the pain of isolation.
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Speaker A
Juvenile detention center, no bond doing time when no one to run.
Speaker A
Lost my pops at 14, said fuck life to the pain, can't lie, I was numb.
Speaker A
Seen my nanny cry a few times, shit broke my heart and it made me feel dumb.
Speaker A
My head know it, they know they need me, so I'm trying to think of something.
Speaker A
I hope I don't die or go to jail for the shit that I did in the song, this ain't no regular clip on the K when I'm out with the fam, I'm bringing a drone.
Speaker A
Niggas try to play with me while I'm out my fam, I'm turning his ass around.
Speaker A
Having talks with D&B, he saying I'm him, he said LeBron, one of my brothers keep a hat when he get that tattoo for a reason, one for none.
Speaker A
We was stuck in the rank for so long, you still want to lie down when the sun going to come.
Speaker A
I was in a dark place for a while, I ain't know how to cope, so I turned to drugs.
Speaker A
We had zipped the nigga who killed my nigga, this life shit still ain't fun.
Speaker A
Seen my bro bleeding on the floor, not breathing, that shit had tore my soul.
Speaker A
Popping pills by the four, trying to overdose, cuz I can't do this life shit no more.
Speaker A
I had the gun in my head, I was almost dead, threw it back and I just to the dough.
Speaker A
Know they going to feel a way about this, but I feel my fam won't care if I go.
Speaker A
Alone in my room, my gun on the rope, I can't even have this depression no more.
Speaker A
Soul been gone for 10 plus years, I think that's my sign just to go.
Speaker A
I know how it feel to feel no love, I ain't even know what it's like to be loved.
Speaker A
All alone at home, my phone, why you out having fun at the club?
Speaker A
I come from the streets trying to make me a beast, I guess it's the life of a thug.
Speaker A
When I kill myself, they going to swear they miss me, in this world I don't ran out of trust.
Speaker A
Losing friends since I was young, I ain't want to go to college, I said for school and I had picked up a gun.
Speaker A
Juvenile detention center, no bond doing time when no one to run.
Speaker A
Lost my pops at 14, said fuck life to the pain, can't lie, I was numb.
Speaker A
Seen my nanny cry a few times, shit broke my heart and it made me feel dumb.
Speaker A
My head know it, they know they need me, so I'm trying to think of something.
Speaker A
I hope I don't die or go to jail for the shit that I did in the song, this ain't no regular clip on the K when I'm out with the fam, I'm bringing a drone.
Speaker A
Niggas try to play with me while I'm out my fam, I'm turning his ass around.
Speaker A
Having talks with D&B, he saying I'm him, he said LeBron, one of my brothers keep a hat when he get that tattoo for a reason, one for none.
Speaker A
We was stuck in the rank for so long, you still want to lie down when the sun going to come.
Speaker A
I was in a dark place for a while, I ain't know how to cope, so I turned to drugs.
Speaker A
We had zipped the nigga who killed my nigga, this life shit still ain't fun.
Speaker A
Seen my bro bleeding on the floor, not breathing, that shit had tore my soul.
Speaker A
Popping pills by the four, trying to overdose, cuz I can't do this life shit no more.
Speaker A
I had the gun in my head, I was almost dead, threw it back and I just to the dough.
Speaker A
Know they going to feel a way about this, but I feel my fam won't care if I go.
Speaker A
Alone in my room, my gun on the rope, I can't even have this depression no more.
Speaker A
Soul been gone for 10 plus years, I think that's my sign just to go.
Speaker A
I know how it feel to feel no love, I ain't even know what it's like to be loved.
Speaker A
All alone at home, my phone, why you out having fun at the club?
Speaker A
I come from the streets trying to make me a beast, I guess it's the life of a thug.
Speaker A
When I kill myself, they going to swear they miss me, in this world I don't ran out of trust.
Topics:losing friendsdepressionstreet lifeviolencedrug usesuicidemental healthfamily lossjuvenile detentionemotional pain
