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Welcome to the Rumi Topic channel. Before we begin, it’s best to position your body comfortably. Calm your feelings, relax, and start by saying the basmala. Enjoy the listening. Auzubillahiminasyaitanirrajim.
Learn the importance of self-forgiveness and how it impacts mental health and spiritual growth in this insightful talk by Pak Wayan Mustika.
Key Takeaways
- Self-forgiveness is crucial for mental health and spiritual growth.
- Unforgiven guilt traps people in a cycle of trauma and low self-esteem.
- Empathy toward oneself fosters healing and better decision-making.
- Forgiving oneself is not forgetting but learning and releasing emotional burdens.
- Toxic perfectionism and harsh self-criticism increase risks of depression.
What the video covers
- The video explores the spiritual and psychological importance of forgiving oneself as a key to inner peace and harmony with life.
- Self-forgiveness is presented as a simple yet often overlooked spiritual skill that helps overcome guilt and self-criticism.
- Holding grudges against oneself leads to constant mental emergency mode, rumination, and trauma from past mistakes.
- Unresolved guilt from childhood or past relationships can severely impact self-esteem, confidence, and decision-making abilities.
- Lack of self-forgiveness increases risks of anxiety, depression, and toxic perfectionism.
- The video emphasizes empathy toward oneself as essential, similar to how one would treat a good friend who made a mistake.
- Forgiving oneself does not mean forgetting the lesson but releasing the emotional burden to improve and move forward.
- The discussion includes the dangers of excessive self-blame and the balance between self-accountability and self-compassion.
- Spiritual teachings are simplified to practical steps like self-forgiveness rather than extraordinary feats.
- The video includes a Q&A format with practical examples and reflections to deepen understanding.
Chapters
- 00:00Introduction and Spiritual Preparation
- 04:03Why Forgiving Yourself is Difficult
- 07:49Effects of Unforgiven Guilt and Trauma
- 11:08Mental Health Risks and Toxic Perfectionism
- 15:12Empathy and Practical Steps to Self-Forgiveness
- 22:52Balancing Self-Accountability and Compassion
- 30:09Spiritual Insights and Final Reflections
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Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Rbi azubika min hamazati sayatin wubika ayah durun. Rbisrohli sodri waassirli amri wahluluk datami lisani yafqahu quai. Peace be upon you, and Allah's mercy and blessings. Greetings of peace to us all. Blessings. Namaste. Om swastiastu.
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Namo buddhaya. Greetings of virtue and health to us all. We are here to learn together how to let go, how to reflect.
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Muhasabah means examining oneself, evaluating oneself, or looking deep within. I feel that today we have many media outlets to display ourselves in this social media era. But we might lack space to be alone, to listen to our inner selves, to hear our wounds,
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or to address our difficulty in accepting ourselves. Perhaps today we are very skilled at creating AI prompts. Perhaps we are very expert at doing many things. But there may be one skill that I feel is slightly sidelined: the
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skill of how I can forgive myself. We will delve into why forgiving oneself is one of the hardest things to do.
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Even though forgiving oneself also means loving oneself. And loving oneself is part of how to give life a better meaning. So, without further ado, let’s give a round of applause to our teacher, Pak Wayan Mustika. How are
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you, Teacher? Praise be to God, I am well, Kang Abu. Thank you, Teacher. Thank you, the event yesterday at Rumah Semesta was a success. It was really great, I saw it was packed. Thank you, Teacher. What was the event yesterday, Teacher?
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Well, it just happened, Kang Abu, that we continued last month's Energy Mind and Soul Healing event at the Faras office. But during my session, there were many questions that hadn't been answered.
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Hm. So I felt like I owed them answers to their questions. So they were invited to the house to gather again. Then they were given the chance to ask, and well, many new answers flowed yesterday, like that, Kang.
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Okay, thank you, Teacher. Yes, yes. Okay. Maybe we will delve deeper, Teacher, because one of the questions that I find very, very often, and I also feel it myself, Teacher, in this context is, how can we truly accept ourselves as we
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are, or in other words, forgive ourselves? Now, perhaps we can break that down first, Teacher.
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Why is it so hard to accept ourselves as we are? I feel that when we struggle to accept ourselves, we also struggle to accept others, let alone life, and we end up fighting against life instead of being in harmony with it. Please,
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Teacher. Yes, alright, Kang Abu, uh... Yes, many people learning spirituality think they have to be able to fly, swim or dive deep, or withstand the snow, right, Kang Abu? Whereas, spiritual lessons are actually simple things. It's as simple as, for example, just forgiving
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yourself; no need for anything heavy. Because there are people who want to be able to fly, want to be able to run like lightning, when in fact, what most often stops people from flying freely and so on is when they feel guilty and
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find it hard to forgive themselves, Kang. Okay. Something like this, Kang Bu. If I were to share more detailed knowledge using, uh, PowerPoint, is that okay, Kang Bu?
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Oh, absolutely, Guru. Oh, okay. Okay. This is to make it easier for others later so that it can be watched by our friends. So, I want to share this, okay? But I haven't had the chance to greet everyone yet. Peace
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be upon you, ladies and gentlemen. Best wishes to all. Greetings to all, may peace be upon you. I hope everyone stays healthy this evening and beyond.
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Now, I would like to share my screen so that the knowledge is received in more detail, right. So that if it's done this way, it's what you could call more solid, right.
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Okay, Guru. Now, Kang Bu, I want to go deeper into how to, uh, forgive ourselves. Now, why is it so important for us to learn to forgive ourselves? This is a spiritual teaching that people might forget and consider something, ah, just trivial.
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Whereas there are many lives that struggle to run smoothly when people still hold grudges. Not just holding grudges against others, but also holding grudges against themselves.
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Resentment over their guilt. This is heavy, Kang Bu. It seems simple, but it is actually extraordinarily heavy. Now, let's see what actually happens when we learn about ourselves, just a moment.
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Yes, it turns out there are many very, very simple things that we often forget, wait. Ah, here it is. Wow, wow, this is erroring out. This, this is having an error. Okay. Now, what is the danger if we do not forgive ourselves? Well,
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if a person cannot forgive themselves, their life is always in emergency mode, Kang Bu. What does emergency mode mean?
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It's like something is threatening them. Because if a person thinks, "Oh, I am wrong," then I am being punished. So this will make me suffer. This will keep them constantly in emergency mode.
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Hm. Now, this, and the effects are extraordinary if we don't forgive ourselves because we are as if being chased by the shadow of our guilt. Well, the effect on our psyche, on our mental state is like this. There is
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rumination. So, it's really true that people who cannot forgive themselves often dwell on mistakes that are actually already done and in the past, eventually becoming traumatic.
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Traumatic memories are just repeated over and over. Meeting others, they talk about it, "Oh, I really regret doing this yesterday." Meet another person and tell the same story again.
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Even though the memory of that mistake is what actually makes them uncomfortable. H. But as uncomfortable as they feel, they just keep repeating it. Actually, what they hope for is to get empathy and support from others, that's really it.
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It's just that because they haven't really, what do you call it, haven't really finished with that matter. So it gets repeated over and over. Now, when someone makes a mistake and feels they failed to carry out their vision and
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mission, it can cause their self-esteem to drop. K. So, it's hard to be confident, feeling like they've failed before. I always fail, I feel bad if I'm asked again and so on. They lose, even lose the spirit to start something, afraid of failure.
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So sometimes they hesitate or even don't dare to make decisions. I met someone like this, a good job, earning up to 2 billion a year. But when it comes to making a decision, they hesitate, yes. Even though they are an
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adult. Now, these are the signs of how someone who, in their childhood, has some unresolved guilt. Maybe guilt over an ex, maybe guilt towards parents, so they feel, oh, all sorts of things.
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Later we will see why people can feel this guilt. Now, that needs to be discussed, Mr.
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Wayan. Why are exes always unsettling, Mr. Wayan? Yes. Well, it's like this, Kang Abu. Why are exes always unsettling? Because in the past, all that's remembered are the ones that were unsettling.
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Oh, that's true, Mr. Wayan. But that doesn't relate to the current audience, Mr. Wayan. Oh, not yet, not yet. Forget about the ex, it's just like that.
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Yeah. Like that. Now, if someone still hasn't been able to forgive themselves, the worst effect is experiencing anxiety and depression.
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So people who are too critical of themselves are said to have three times higher risk of experiencing depression.
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Be careful with people who haven't managed to resolve their past mistakes. They easily criticize themselves. I am the one at fault, feeling guilty, feeling this and that, finally becoming depressed. Now, also be careful with thinking that is driven too much by
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idealism. Even feeling that life must be perfect, not being able to accept oneself as is, that can be toxic too.
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Well, it's known as toxic perfectionism. It can be toxic, Kang Abu. Hm. Well, especially people who find it difficult to understand and forgive themselves tend to find it difficult to forgive others as well. Now, this usually happens. So, be careful, if y
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find it hard to forgive yourself, eventually it’s hard to forgive others, and in the end, you won't be able to build good communication with anyone. Now, be careful with this. Be careful. So, what are the effects on the body? Well, when people start
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blaming themselves, feeling threatened, chased by shadows of guilt and sin, their cortisol hormones rise, leading to stress. Once stressed, their immune system declines, their blood sugar rises, and they might overeat because of the stress. Some people eat a lot
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due to stress, which naturally increases triglycerides and visceral fat, leading to a high risk of other metabolic diseases. Often experiencing chronic inflammation. Then, even worse, the telomeres shorten. When telomeres shorten, a person ages quickly.
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Aging quickly because cell division is disrupted. Okay. Could you explain what telomeres are, Mr. Wayan? What is their function?
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What are telomeres like? They are like the tips of the DNA. The end part of it. So if they shorten, the more they shorten, the harder it is for cells to divide.
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Hmm. So, the cells have difficulty regenerating, causing the body to age quickly. Then, the biological age of DNA is determined by those telomeres.
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Furthermore, it can change the DNA epigenetics. Epigenetics is like this. Imagine, for example, that DNA is like a recipe book, Kang. Like what? A recipe book.
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Hmm. Or what is epigenetics similar to? A highlighter. Hmm. A highlighter that shows this is important, this is important, this is important, and so on. So, if the DNA that regulates our physical body is then influenced by stress, the things
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highlighted by those stress factors are what? I am anxious, I am a failure, I am sad, I am disappointed. That will shape your life if the epigenetics are set like that. Because the epigenetics are changed by what? By the stressors.
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Hmm. Like that, Kang Bu. So, be careful with what we think and feel because it will cause changes in our epigenetics.
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Epigenetics is like software on a phone . So, I don’t want to use other apps.
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I just want the applications that make me stressed, for example. So that’s what keeps running, right? We’ll talk more about epigenetics sometime.
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Okay. Then, what about the effects on the soul, on the spirit? Since the spirit is coated by the panchamaya, it’s clear that the physical body will be affected by what? Unable to forgive oneself. The effect of that stress is
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that their energy will surely decline. Then they become lazy to learn good things for their life, their mind is disturbed, and their happiness is also disrupted. Well, certainly the other pancha koshas beyond the annamaya kosha or the body will have negative effects.
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Now, if those koshas or the illusory layers wrapping one's true self are also dirty or have poor energy frequencies, then in a future rebirth, one might encounter bodies that are no longer suitable for a higher purpose.
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Like this, Kang Abu. So, the effects are extraordinary. Just because of one thing, which is not being able to forgive oneself. You have to be careful with this. So the effects are really extraordinary.
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Now, how do we experience the process of blaming? Well, here are the characteristics. If a person hasn't learned yet, they will surely blame others because they want to keep themselves safe. Because if they blame themselves, it feels quite heavy. They
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will always, because in our world, being wrong equals being punished, and being punished equals suffering. So, people who haven't learned will be afraid of doctrines about punishment, hell, this punishment, or that punishment. So even making a mistake feels frightening.
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Hm. So, instead of being tormented by guilt , they would rather blame others. Because let alone dying and getting hell later, they are already suffering now because they are tormented by guilt . So rather than feeling guilty, they'd
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rather shift the blame onto someone else. Those are the characteristics of people who haven't learned. But people who have started to learn will begin to blame themselves. Now, in this process, if they deepen their understanding and begin to forgive themselves until it's
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resolved, they will learn to stop blaming themselves, stop blaming anyone , and just live life as it is. So, it's like that, Kang Abu. It's a long story about our life process, from still liking to blame others or things
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outside ourselves, then learning to blame ourselves, and finally not blaming anyone at all. This is the long process. Now, why do people blame themselves? This is using this. Why is this important? So that later we can find out why I like to blame myself, so
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it can be overcome and the learning can be completed. So, why do we blame ourselves? The first is because we have already created a value or norm for ourselves. For example, I am an honest person, I must be an honest person. Now
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, when we lie for once, wow, that can make us feel tormented. Kang Bu, I feel guilty for having lied. Hm.
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For example, we think, I am a gentle person. Suddenly we have to speak harshly. Oh, I feel guilty. Oh, I was wrong for yelling at someone earlier, for example. So, this inner conflict happens between the values we’ve already labeled ourselves with and the
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reality of what we’ve already done. These labels are a mess, Kang Bu. This inner conflict—have you ever felt or seen people who say, "Oh, I couldn't sleep last night because I kept thinking about how I scolded my child
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or my husband," that's what it's like, Kang Abu. Very often, Pak Wayan, really. Yeah.
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Yes. Eh, this is inner conflict. Even though the actual purpose of guilt is so we stay aligned with our true selves . For example, we already hold certain values about ourselves. I am an honest person who happened to lie once. Oh
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well, I did lie, but that’s it, just let it be. But if a person is attached to it, they immediately feel imprisoned by guilt for having lied. That’s an example. Now, be careful with this.
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It’s not wrong to have good values for ourselves that we want to uphold. That’s fine. So, the moment you stray a little, just turn back, it’s okay.
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But don't blame yourself, don't think, "Oh, I'm on the wrong path, why did I let myself stray?" Ah, don't be like that. This. Now, the second thing that often makes us feel guilty is when we hurt others. Naturally, we have what is
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known as the mirror neuron effect in our brains, which makes us have sympathy and empathy for others.
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Once we hurt someone, we feel, "Oh, I hurt them." We feel guilty. Now, some people ignore that feeling and keep hurting others. But if a person has started to learn, they will definitely become sensitive. Sensitive, like, "Oh, it's because of me that they are sad,"
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for example. And that is also a dangerous empathy when, "Oh, because of me they became disappointed or sad," and then taking all that guilt on yourself is also dangerous. Because later and it's proven, Pak Wayan, the comments on TikTok are so numerous. "
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This is so me,""This is so me," like that. It seems like it really, truly relates to all of us.
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Yes. Yes, it really is like that, Kang. Yes, it's frustrating, right? So we feel like we are the cause of other people's sadness, disappointment, or we become the cause of someone else's pain . Becoming the cause, like, "Oh,
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because I didn't stop them when they left, I became the cause of their accident." If only I had held them back for a moment, maybe they wouldn't have had the accident. Or if I had let them stay at my house, maybe they wouldn't
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have ridden their motorcycle and crashed. Many people are like this, Kang. Feeling they are the cause of events for others and feeling extremely guilty. Especially then thinking, " Could it be that because of this, I'll go to hell?" Well, all sorts of things
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like that, Kang, Bu. But actually Feelings of sympathy, empathy, and not wanting to hurt others are meant to keep our relationships with others harmonious and balanced. That is a good purpose. If we feel, oh, it’s uncomfortable to hurt someone, that’s
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good. But when it becomes a prison, a source of guilt, that needs to be addressed. These are two things that might cause us to easily blame ourselves. Right, okay.
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Now, here's a question: who has ever had expectations that were too high, only to fail? "Oh, why didn't I become a manager?""I really should have been a manager.""Oh, why are my grades like this?""My parents expected me to pass,
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I studied really hard, but why didn't I pass?" All those expectations from themselves, their families, their faith , society, or groups. When they fail, they feel exhausted; they feel they have disappointed everyone, including themselves.
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Hmm. This is very heavy, Kang. You can feel guilty for a lifetime because of this.
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"Ah, if only I had done this, I should have done that." Now, that really makes people suffer, Kang Abu.
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Exactly. Yes. The good intention is to motivate us so that whatever others or parents expect can be achieved, and we should work hard for that. But many people get trapped by the outcome rather than the process. If people focus on the process
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, having studied hard, failing shouldn't be such a big deal. But we feel guilty for not achieving the goal.
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In the end, the process gets blamed. " I'm just stupid." Then we label ourselves as stupid. Ah, this is dangerous, Kang. This is something that needs reflection. Then the fourth thing that often makes people feel guilty is survivor's guilt. So, feeling guilty
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because, for example, we are in an accident, and we survive because we managed to jump away. But our friend fell and ended up in a severe condition. "Oh, why didn't I help them?" This might also happen in conditions where, for
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example, we are on a ship that sinks, and we manage to grab a life vest and survive, but the person we were with doesn't make it. This can trigger extraordinary guilt. Because inside us, there is often a bit of a heroic nature
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, so when we fail to be a hero for others, it makes us think, "I should have done this, I should have protected them, I should have reacted faster." Yes, something like that. This often happens in households, Kang Abu. For
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instance, a mother whose child falls, thinking, "Oh, why am I like this?""Why did I let them go?" Yeah, there are many. Even though the goal is actually good, so that we remain caring and responsible for the future of our
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children and our family. But as soon as we feel we didn't do what we were supposed to do, that’s when we feel like a survivor who feels guilty. Yes, a survivor who feels guilty. That's how it is, Kang, Bu. Now,
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but it feels like taking on too much responsibility, Pak Wayan. Well, that it's like wanting to be a hero, right?
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Like if I don't do that, I'm a total failure. Even though it's actually beyond their ability and beyond their responsibility too.
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Correct. Hero complex, you. Hero complex, yes. Yes. That, this is heavy. Be careful with that. Well, these kinds of patterns are easy to resolve. We'll see later. Actually, guilt is good. It acts as an alarm. An alarm for us to be
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careful, alert for the future, and able to take better responsibility in the future. But if this guilt is not used well, it instead becomes a prison. A prison that makes us afraid to do anything. Losing self-confidence, becoming hesitant like mentioned
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earlier. Afraid to make decisions, afraid of being wrong again in the future. Eventually, we are imprisoned by such traumas.
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Huh. So, how do we actually forgive ourselves? Well, I learned that the way to forgive yourself is by using the REPAIR method. Repair, repair. Okay.
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Repair, yes. R for Recognize, E for Empathize, or bring empathy to yourself. P for Plan, A for Accept, then I for Integrate.
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Then the last R is Remember. We'll clarify it more deeply later. Now, okay. That last one. Okay.
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Let's start with R. R for Recognize, acknowledge it. So, if we feel guilty, specifically acknowledge that I am guilty because I lied earlier. But never label yourself as "I am a bad person,""I am a liar,""I am rude." You
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shouldn't. That is very dangerous. Just acknowledge, "I am guilty today because I lied." I will use this as a lesson so tomorrow I don't need to lie anymore.
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Whatever the result, it's better to be honest than to lie. Now, that's an example. Feeling guilty because you lied is good. But as soon as you label yourself "I am a rude liar.""I am evil.
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" This is very dangerous. The effects are unpleasant. When we acknowledge our mistakes, for example, "I acted hurtfully toward my partner today, hurt my child with my words," well, acknowledge it, it's okay.
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Acknowledge it internally first before acknowledging it outwardly by apologizing; acknowledge it to yourself first. So, feel your emotions in that moment and accept, "Oh, why did I get so angry like that?" Acknowledge it.
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Admit it. Then, don't suppress it. Feelings of sadness, disappointment, shame, or regret—don't suppress them.
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That has a bad effect. Allow yourself to feel sad because you’ve done something wrong. Allow yourself to feel ashamed because you’ve done something bad. Allow yourself to feel regret, but that regret must eventually be mended.
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If necessary, write it in a journal and look at your days. "Today, I did something wrong." Who knows, maybe after writing it down and reading it a year later, you'll see that from December 1st to the 31st, it was all
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about me making mistakes, right? You'll realize, "Wow, for a whole year, I made mistakes every single day and never fixed them." Then you’ll know.
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The journal is full of... Yes exactly. Regretting it, repeating it, regretting it, repeating it—that doesn't make sense.
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By the way, four months until New Year, Mr. Wayan. Don't forget, it's August now, September is almost here, don't fill the new year with regrets. Yes.
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This is R, now for repair, and the E is empathy. So, learn to have empathy for yourself. Imagine if you had a good friend. If your good friend makes a mistake, should you embrace them or hit them? If you embrace, forgive,
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understand, and love a friend when they make a mistake. Don't let yourself do the opposite when you make a mistake— don't curse yourself, saying, "I'm so awful," or "I'm like this." Don't, don't, don't.
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This body is your best friend that has accompanied you until today. Don't let your body be driven incorrectly by your mind because of ego, then you curse yourself, get angry, hate, or hold a grudge against yourself. Don't. Don't.
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This body is our best friend. It's like a sibling. But they can fight, right, Teacher?
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They can fight, saying, "The body is like this because of the mind," and the mind blames the body, saying, "This is because of the feelings.""These feelings are because of the emotions." So it’s just constant chaos inside, right, Sir?
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Yes. Yes. Yes, it's just chaos like that. So, consider it—oh, just embrace yourself. "I forgive you, I understand you." Now, how do we understand it? Remember the situation.
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Oh, right, I was angry this morning. Why was I angry at my child? Oh, it turns out I was hungry, I was stressed in traffic, I was like this. Yeah, yeah , yeah. I understand why I was angry.
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There, just like that. For example, once I understand why I was angry, then I apologize.
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Yes. So, before we apologize to others, forgive yourself first. Maybe at that time we were tired, but don't use it as a justification. "Yeah, do you know why I got angry?""I was tired, you know, you did this and that," for example,
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that is what's called self-justification. No, no. That's not what I mean. So sometimes we take actions that might make us regret not helping others, for example, or perhaps not being optimal or not giving our best to save someone.
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Just imagine that we already did our best. Because that was all we could do at that time. Sometimes people say things like, "Sir, Ma'am, my parents died because I didn't take them to the hospital." Even though at that time, perhaps our
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consideration for not taking them to the hospital was, "Oh, if we go to the hospital, this and that might happen." Eventually, we decided to stay at home.
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In the end, they passed away at home too. Now, sometimes people feel guilty. "If only I had taken them to the hospital, if only this..." we keep imagining things when it's already over.
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Hm. Now, there is no need to do that. The important thing is we did our best at that time. Because our best back then will not be the same as our best right now. If only I had taken them to
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the hospital, but I didn't have money back then; if I have money now, it's different.
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Okay. Yes. Yeah. Yes. That is then the 'e'. Then, what is the plan? Make a self-improvement plan. So, don't just keep repeating the same thing over and over. There is no improvement that way.
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So, make improvements as a form of responsibility. Yes, for example, we apologize if we hurt someone, but don't repeat it. Improve for the future.
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Don't keep thinking, "If only I had done this," there's no need. It has passed, what else can be done? But tell yourself, "Next time, I won't do that again, and I will do this instead." That, that is improvement. So replace
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our guilt with actions that are better than before. That is much more worth it . Regretting, regretting, regretting, but never changing in the future. This is also dangerous. H.
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Yes, that is the plan. Then 'A', accept and release. Now, accept that we have made a mistake, but use that bad experience to make us better. That is the key. So, learn from mistakes. Yes, many people don't want to learn from
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mistakes because they don't accept them . Don't accept. They don't accept that they are wrong, don't accept that they feel guilty, like that. Eventually, they don't use that bad experience as a bridge to become better, more mature, more adult, more aware, and so on. So,
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train ourselves to let go of the bad identity that we might have already labeled ourselves with when we failed, for example. So don't say I've failed, I won't be able to do it again. Don't be like that. It will ruin our life's
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journey. It's better to say, "I have failed, but this will make me become better.
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I am not a failure." If necessary, say I am not a failure. I am just learning to become better. For example, don't say I am a liar, but say I am not a liar, though I have lied and will learn
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from it. Always tell ourselves that. This is far better than labeling ourselves with bad identities. I am stupid. Don't say that, I just didn't know once. But this will make me learn and, uh, know more than before. This is the best way for us to
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change, like that. This is the A for repair. So the I is integrate. So what does integrate mean? Joining back together. Yes, continue our lives.
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Forget what? Ignore what has passed. In the sense that we will explain later. Don't keep bringing up the same mistakes every day. Chatting here bringing up our own problems, chatting there bringing up our own past problems . Eventually, we don't move on. So move
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on to the version of ourselves that we prepare to be better than before. Yes, so that is our way to integrate, joining our current self and our better self in the future. That's how it's done. If we just let our past wrong
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self be, that is what is called being imprisoned by our own past mistakes. Now, the last R is remember but do not ruminate. So it means remember the lesson, forget the torment of the guilt , okay. Remember the lesson. Oh, this
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is what I have to fix. Sometimes, for instance, when we are taking an exam or , uh, doing a test at school, we get it wrong and feel, uh, what, stressed or something at that moment. So just remember, oh I was wrong. 2*2 I wrote
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equals 5. That's enough. Don't remember the stress. Don't remember the torment of the guilt at that time. Oh, I must find out that 2*2 is not 5 but 4. It's finished like that. So no need to repeat the guilt over and over again.
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These are some ways for us to forgive ourselves with the prepare concept earlier. Now, there are some things that often happen to us. I don't want to apologize to myself, don't want to apologize to others. Because why?
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Forgiving is the same as forgetting. Now, this is the most common mistake. No, forgiving doesn't mean we forget, we remember the lesson, but, uh, erase the memory, like that. That is if we forget. So, forgiving does not mean
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forgetting. We remember the lesson then use it to be, uh, a compass for us in the future, like that. So, uh, don't wait for the guilt to fade away before you forgive yourself. Thinking, "I'll forgive myself once the guilt is gone."
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Don't do that. It’s actually the act of forgiving that makes the guilt go away. Don't, don't, don't get that backwards. Don't wait for the guilt to fade before forgiving. Forgive yourself first. Then, naturally, the guilt will start to diminish. Now, don't keep
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punishing yourself constantly. Because that is not the same as taking responsibility. That actually means you're just sabotaging yourself. Yes, punishing yourself out of guilt is the same as self-sabotage. It, it, it serves no purpose. That is not a form
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of responsibility. Punishing yourself is not, not, not the way to forgive yourself. Punishing yourself only makes us feel even worse. So, fix it, just fix it. That’s what I teach my child.
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If they make a mistake, instead of blaming them, I invite them to fix the situation. That’s what I need to teach from now on. So, uh, let's get back to the points here. I will share these in the chat later. So, uh, the
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summary is there are 10 practical ways to forgive ourselves. The first one is, acknowledge your feelings. So, identify and acknowledge our feelings, our feelings of guilt. We acknowledge them, then, understand your action.
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Understand why we did the thing we now call a mistake. Understand why we chose that action at the time to understand the context. Yeah. Don't be in a hurry to blame yourself. Then apologize to yourself and make improvements for the
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future. That’s the third one. Then the fourth, accept that we are not perfect. Not perfect in the sense that there is good and bad, sometimes wrong, sometimes right, sometimes angry, sometimes patient, sometimes disappointed, sometimes joyful. Just accept that is who we are. Then replace
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, uh, negative self-talk with something better. Don't say, "I did wrong," but rather, "I just haven't gotten it right yet." For example, do things like that.
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Then train ourselves to love ourselves. Practice self-compassion, train ourselves. Because many people try to love others while sacrificing themselves. No. Hmm.
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People must be able to love themselves before loving others. Now, there is " reframe your narrative." So, uh, reshape it, reframe the narratives we have about ourselves. Reshape and create positive narratives about ourselves so that’s how we’ll be in
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the future. And if it’s too difficult , just seek help from professionals. And what becomes most apparent later on is learning to practice mindfulness so that there aren't many things we regret anymore, not many thoughts we regret, words we regret, or attitudes or
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actions we regret. So, it just goes on and on, back and forth, with so many mistakes, so much lack of apology, and it becomes a heavy burden for us. So, try not to repeat the same mistakes again because we have been practicing
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mindfulness, being fully aware of what we are doing, right. And lastly, if we experience a process of improvement step-by-step, becoming better than yesterday, even if it's only a little, let's just celebrate it. Yes, like how we celebrate a marriage, not only every
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year but every day is a wedding anniversary anniversary. Something like that, Kang Abu. Okay.
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Okay. That last part is a bit scary, Pak Wayan, for some people, Pak Wayan.
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That last part is scary, right. Some people might not be able to have a wedding anniversary, Sir.
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Okay, Pak Wayan, this is interesting, very, very interesting. I've been reading the comments from our friends and so on. Now, maybe I want to open up a bit first, Pak Wayan. Yes.
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So, from my side first, right. Yeah. I have one anxiety that, until today, I am still regulating, Pak Wayan.
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I This relates to my daily process when I'm teaching or giving a lecture, Pak Wayan. Now, what's interesting is this, Pak Wayan. I feel uneasy when I am invited by someone and I can't perform well, and what I convey is not
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understood by them, Pak Wayan. So, sometimes I take responsibility, thinking that their lack of understanding is my fault. Well, I've been feeling this for a long time, but now it's much better. Now, yeah, sometimes, sometimes there's a point
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where, as I said, when the audience doesn't understand, I always self-blame , Pak Wayan, thinking, "Oh, maybe my language wasn't good or the discussion wasn't good." And lately, I've also come to understand, after talking a lot with Pak Wayan and others, about the
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context that everything, what do you call it, in its frequency and vessel, must be different. So, the blaming about one thing I experience, Pak Wayan , is about how hard it is to make others understand, because maybe there
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is a desire there for people to understand. How do I handle this, Pak Wayan?
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Well, Kang Abu, we are not talking about that right now, okay. Let's find something else, Kang Abu. God is the Creator. He is even present in His own creation, but even to make all His creations understand Him, He didn't
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succeed either. Nice, not bad. That's true, isn't it? Yeah. He created. And those created also don't really understand God, it seems, right?
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Oh, right. Some even don't believe in Him, you know. Okay. Even though He is already within them, the ones He created. Now, can you imagine what that's like for us?
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Yes, I understand, Mr. Wayan. But that's it, Mr. Wayan, the guilt is like this. It feels bad when they, for example, have spent money to invite me, then I can't perform at my best, and I can't "quote and quote" show or deliver
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something. That is always there, and honestly, Mr. Wayan, it was so acute back then, even when I surveyed the people I invited and they already said it was okay, inside I would always think, "Ah, they're probably just trying to make me feel better." Now
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that's acute, Mr. Wayan. Yes. I'm the same, Kang Abu. That's why I'm like this, I'm often dissatisfied if it's only 1 or 2 hours of chatting with people or hosting an event. Because I am convinced as long as they still have questions,
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it means they haven't grasped what I'm conveying. So, for those who haven't grasped it, I have to give more time.
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But sometimes our time is limited, Kang Abu. So, I would need a special session for them to explain, because sometimes analogies don't reach certain people. Kang Abu still remembers, right, Kang Abu, the teachings in, say, Hinduism? Let's assume it's like this. Where does this
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actually apply? Not only in Hinduism. Hmm. First, people can be convinced and know because of what is called*sabda pramana *. *Sabda pram*. *Pramana*means, oh, they believe and this is true. No need to understand it. They are already convinced it's true because it was
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spoken by an authoritative figure. That is called*sabda pramana*. Or if it is in accordance with scriptural references, that is*sabda pramana*or* agama pramana*. Just follow what the religion says, that's it.
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Hmm. But some people are not satisfied with what religion or holy people say. They want more detail. So we use*anumana pramana*. What does*anumana pramana* mean? A person's conviction that it is the truth. Because it is explained in detail until the*anu*, which is the
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atom. Hmm. We explain it down to the atom. But if they still don't understand, saying, " Oh, I'm not a chemist, I'm not this or that," then we enter the area called* upa*. *Upa*means near, *mana*means mind . So this is where we use the language
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of their community. Now, this is it. Hmm. Yes, use the language of their community. Use the language of their community. So, here we then use analogies, *upamana*, which are analogies or examples from life. So, in this way, it means we must have a lot
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of material, and how? By studying nature. Hmm. Once we study nature and life's events, when we want to convey the same thing, we can deliver that same core to fishermen with different language, to farmers differently, to traders differently, yet what they get is the
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same. Hmm. And as we know, whenever we hold an event, Kang Abu, it's not just traders who gather.
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Right. There are farmers, people like this and like that. So, these languages must be delivered in different ways. When they come from heterogeneous backgrounds, but we must provide homogeneous knowledge, that is certainly a bit difficult. Unless those who come are
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homogeneous, for example, the medical world, well, if everyone is from medicine, it is easier to carry. If everyone is a farmer, it is even easier to talk about it. But once they are heterogeneous, they won't understand.
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The medical people are confused by farming terms, and farmers are confused by medical terms. Even though we only need to deliver it in different ways.
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So, h this is what is needed, intimate sessions like what we will have later at the 930 preaching event. Those intimate sessions allow us to one by one provide knowledge in their own language.
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Now, the last one is Pratyaksha. Just go ahead and check for yourself if it's delicious. Basically, this food is delicious, just taste it yourself. Now, in Buddhism, what is it called?
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Ehipassiko. Ehipassiko. Correct. So in Buddhism, please do it yourself, then you will understand what I mean by delicious. So that's roughly it, Kang.
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But we will all surely experience something like that. Because everyone, despite being heterogeneous, wants to get a homogeneous result, which is "I now know." And we also want to inform them. But once we use the same language, not everyone will be
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able to grasp it with that same language. We just need different depths. Yes, that's the challenge. But as mentioned earlier, that feeling of guilt also motivates us to do what? To be able to provide more universal knowledge. Meaning it's not
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just captured by people A and B, but also C and D. Everyone can grasp the same meaning. Something like that, Kang Abu.
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Okay, thank you, Pak Wayan. One more thing, I relate to this because I feel that if a conflict occurs, one point is the difficulty in communication, making people understand what we mean, Pak Wayan, that is the point, the difficulty of how to deliver or
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convey something, like "what I mean is this." Now, not everyone can speak well to convey what is desired. Some use gestures and so on. Now, What are the tips or things that you do , Mr. Wayan? Let's say, when you are
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sharing knowledge or something like that. To make sure you deliver it well and they can receive it properly. What do you actually do?
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Waiting for their response by waiting until they say "Oh, I see." Or reading their facial expressions. If someone looks like this, they're still thinking. If someone is already like this, sleepy, they don't understand what we're saying. If the audience is
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all wearing house dresses, Mr. Wayan, it's clear, isn't it? That much is clear. Well, if the people listening to me are already wearing house dresses and fall asleep, then I've succeeded, Kang.
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Oh, succeeded? Yes. Yes. Because they say listening to me is like listening to a sleeping pill.
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Success is when people are already snoring, right? Yes. That’s true success. Okay, okay, okay, okay.
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Because they don't care about what I say, what's important is...At least I can rest in peace. Whether they understand or not, the important thing is you delivered the message, right, Mr. Wayan? After all, they’ll come back tomorrow to attend the event again
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because they still don’t understand. Hmm. Because like this, their true understanding only comes when they start doing it.
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BAM. Nice, sir. Nice. Yes. No matter how long they attend our events, they will never truly understand. Until they actually do it, right? Okay. If not, they'll just say, "Oh, I do." Do you understand? I do.
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But it's not "I did" yet. I did it. It's just "I do," not "I did." I haven't done it yet. Once they’ve done it, that’s when they usually get it. I never believe it when people say, "Do you understand?""Understand? Do you
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get it?" No, no, no, they don't yet. Yes, same here. I don't believe it either, sir.
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Yes. That happens a lot in classrooms. Understood? Understood. So, how? Ugh, that’s a real issue, Mr. Wayan.
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It's common, just let it slide. Just let it slide. Wow, thank you, Mr. Wayan. That’s the final lesson: let it slide.
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Okay. Now, on the other hand, Mr. Wayan , I found your note about blaming oneself very interesting. See, on one hand, when I blame myself, I can change to be better. But when I blame myself too much, it might be
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destructive, sir. Exactly. So, where is the line between accelerating and braking? Where do I blame myself to boost my spirit for the better, and when is it acute, where it's already "over," or like the alarm earlier? We set an alarm to detect
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danger, but if the alarm is short-circuiting, Mr. Wayan, there's no danger but it keeps ringing.
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So, how do we make it so that if we're already trapped, the alarm keeps going off, Mr. Wayan, like it keeps going off even when there's no danger? Go ahead.
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Yes. If guilt is supposed to make us better in the future, what usually happens? We look at what is right in front of us.
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Hm. For example, if what is in front of us is a book. Ah, when guilt leads us to a book, any book to learn more. Now, that is better.
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But when what is in front of us is a pillow. We grab the pillow. Oh, like that. Well, that's it. That is usually an attempt to, uh, flight from that guilt. We want to hide, we want to sleep, we want to get away from those
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thoughts. This is dangerous. For me, Kang Abu, whenever I get a certain question that I can't understand, for instance, in the past—well, back then —now I'm lucky that I'm often flowed an answer. Back then, I would go home
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immediately and open a book to find out what the answer was. Hm. So, I would make that my, uh, what? We often talk about this, Kang Abu, that those who come and ask are our teachers .
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Hm. When our teacher doesn't understand, it means we are the students who must learn more. It is always like that. So, when they ask and they don't understand . Oh, I haven't found the language that resonates with them, like that. So, we
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are not the teachers. They are the teachers, like we often discuss. So we are not trying to make other people understand us. We are trying to see if we understand them through their many questions. If not, then it means
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we have to learn more, study more, study more. Now, when should we feel that we are on track and don't need to push hard anymore, because that comfort zone and that sense of security is just a feeling of comfort? When we no longer
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feel stressed, thinking, "Oh, tomorrow will be fine, it's safe." That's why sometimes, Kang Abu, for certain things , I have to prepare slides or something , because it seems I can't just go with the flow as some people are audio types
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. They understand just by audio, but some need visuals. Oh, there must be a video for this. If not, they won't understand. Ah, I noticed that, Kang.
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Who is my audience? If the audience consists of people from Kang Abu's classes, just audio is fine, just talking is enough for them to understand.
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But there are people who uh, have less spatial intelligence, so they must be given an illustration like this, the universe like this. Uh, so they have an image.
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Okay. Kang Abu, I have an experience that I'm sure you've heard about often. A Muslim person came all the way from Malaysia, and he first wanted to see God.
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Hmm. Yeah. So he arrived, suddenly wanting to see God. Just to see God. I was taught by my religion that wherever you turn, there is the face of Allah. But I have never seen it. Okay. Okay. Come here, come
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here. I took him to look at atoms, at everything, went into the void, and so on. After that, I told him to go to the beach and see God everywhere, just as I had taught him. He came back that
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evening, as he was staying at my place. He was crying. Kang Abu, why was he crying? "I see the sand, I see God; I see the waves, I see God's work," and so on. He was just crying like that. A
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month later, his friend came from Malaysia. He also wanted to cry because he felt, "Why is my friend so happy finding God that he ended up crying?""I want that too." So, I asked him, "What do you do for a living?" He said, "I'm
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a chemistry professor." Wow, this should be even easier. I explained the atoms, DNA, and so on, but all he got was information, like a lecture.
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Hmm. No tears. "Oh, I see, but I don't feel anything." Then he went home. The next day, he asked to meet again. "Sir, can we meet again?""I really want to feel that crying sensation." Oh boy, yesterday's explanation didn't work.
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The explanation was the same as the one I gave the previous person. The previous one was just an elementary school teacher; this chemistry professor didn't get it. Then, suddenly , I had a flash of insight. I just said
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this: "Try to say what I do." I said something, and he answered immediately, even though I didn't ask. "Ready?"" Ready." That's what he said. Then I just sang, "Kang Abu, between Anyer and Jakarta, there is...""Amy Search." That's what he said. "Okay, one more.""
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Isabella.""It's Amy Search," he said. Okay. Then I just asked him this: "Oh, good thing when I went there to Pak Wayan's place, I wasn't given that song .""I don't know, Pak Wayan wasn't born yet.""Wasn't born yet." Yeah. So, so,
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Pak Wayan. Then I just said this: "Now, Miss, how come when you hear that song, you immediately remember Amy Search?""As soon as you hear this song, Isabella, you immediately remember Amy Search."" But when you see His creation, you
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don't remember the Creator at all." Oh, he burst into tears instantly, Kang Abu . Wow, he just started crying. Feeling guilty, feeling moved. Why is it like that? Wherever I turn, why don't I see the...suddenly, he saw it. So, that
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means sometimes the way out is too simple for people. Some people need to be complicated to understand things like that, Kang Abu. H Yeah.
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This is a bit out of topic, but. Why is it that when we start to feel a longing for God, a longing for the creator of the universe, it naturally makes us cry , Pak Wayan? Because sometimes, crying
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can be driven by feelings. For example, Pak Wayan, in Islamic tradition, some say if your prayer is solemn, you will surely shed tears. Now, there are people who shed tears, but it turns out they were just dumped by their partner.
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They were just feeling sad while praying. So, how does it work, or what is the mechanism between tears and divinity, or is that linked to feelings ? How is that, Pak Wayan?
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Kang Abu, if I give you a pineapple, for example, a pineapple. I peel the skin, then I get the flesh. If you squeeze the flesh, what comes out, Kang Abu?
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Its juice. Juice. Yeah. If I give you a durian, if you squeeze the skin, you won't get anything. But if you squeeze the flesh, you get juice right?
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Hmm. You do. What else, for example? For instance, a mango. If I peel the mango and squeeze the flesh, what do you get?
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Juice, too. If the essence inside a human is then pressed by the embrace of longing, what comes out, Kang? Okay, Boy.
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Pressed in the embrace of longing. All that comes out are the tears that once dirtied the window of the heart, Kang Abu. Because the eye is the window to the heart. It's something like that, Kang Abu. Hm. I.
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Now, this can't be predicted, right, Pak Wayan? Things like this. Yes. Things that, if I could scream, I would scream, Pak Wayan. But yeah yeah, that, that flow, it really is yeah the difference between memorization and flow is truly top-tier, Pak Wayan. It
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hits home, Pak Wayan. I, I also just found this out, Kang. Just found out, just found out the meaning. Just found out the analogy was like that. Okay then. Okay. Just Yeah.
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It hits home, all of nature has given us so many ways to know Him.
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Hm. It’s just that sometimes we can’t read the many paths to encounter Him. We’re just too negligent to understand Him. So many ways are presented to make every different person understand that He exists. But in our own places, we cannot even grasp
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His presence. So, should He feel guilty because we don't understand, or should we be the ones to feel guilty for not understanding as students of life?
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It’s better for me to feel guilty as a student of life for not understanding that He has already told me, rather than blaming Him for not being able to make me understand with all His omnipotence, making me not know who He
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is. It is I who don't know how to understand it. It’s not blaming them for not being able to make me understand. Thanks, Kang. something yeah. It’s not life’s fault when we think life is cruel to us, perhaps, Mr.
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Wayan. It’s not life’s fault when we think that life is harsh to us, but the limitation of our knowledge of something is what makes it look cruel and painful. Yeah, because I can really feel this, Mr.
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Wayan. There was one comment earlier that hit really deep when I read it. This is a father, Mr. Wayan. The comment said, "I am a negligent father who caused my child to fall into the pool and pass away, Mr. Wayan."
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Yes. And he still can't forgive himself to this day. Yes. Now, this is fatal, right? If we look at it, "Wow, I feel like they would definitely be blamed by everyone." What a useless father, couldn't take care of
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his child, leading to their death, and so on. "I think if I were in that father's position, I would probably give up, Mr. Wayan. But what is the best advice or wisdom from you, Mr.
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Wayan, to soothe the soul of this father who feels so guilty that his negligence took his child's life? Guru, please. I am within that child. When I must return, I will return. Whether there is or isn't guard over my other
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children. If I must exist, then nothing can stop me from staying in the life I created. But if I must go, then no force can prevent me from leaving to return to my own true self. It is not
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your fault, it is not anyone's fault, because I have made that part of my own journey. Hm. Field Guru, thank you.
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Yeah. I hope the one who asked feels flowed with the strength of that wisdom . And there is no more resistance when they hear that" I am there. "When I need to go, I will go; when I will be,
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I will be. Whatever happens, I will always exist. And that is far beyond our control. And that is the reality we perhaps need to realize. On another note, this is also an interesting case, Mr. Wayan. I have forgiven, but I ended
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up being completely taken advantage of, and I can't escape this situation. I am asking for help on what to do and how to act in the future. From a mother, Mr. Wayan. Please.
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Yes. Every life lesson, aside from the guilt over what we do to others, the lesson from what others do to us must also be resolved. So if we fall into a hole, it is indeed not the hole’s fault; it is our fault. But if we fall
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back into the same trap, then start to see that, oh, I was the one who was too easy to lose guard, or I was too nice, or I was too trusting. That’s a lesson for us too.
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H Yeah. This, this also needs to be contemplated. Don't let us misunderstand it, thinking that this is a karma I must accept. Not necessarily.
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It could be new karma created by someone else. And that is a lesson for us, whether we have learned to be mindful and alert or if we remain someone who fails again and again on the same issue. Now, that’s different
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, right? This is a different way of understanding it. So, in cases like this, the key is to remain aware, vigilant. Vigilant not to repeat what we regret. Vigilant not to accept again what we will regret. It’s, it’s
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like that. Like that, Kang Abu. Okay, Thank you, Guru. Yes. Friends, I want to create a poll, okay, friends. Those who can reply via chat, please use the chat. Who felt really burdened before this, and now, in the middle of our conversation,
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feels a bit lighter, more relieved, and feels better? Is there anyone who feels much better, released, and let go? Is there anyone who feels their burden has lessened, or perhaps feels more relieved, or maybe feels like" wow, "
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just let go? Is there anyone, friends? Okay, Mr. Wayan, I’m sure nearly 99.9 %of the answers will be that they feel and experience what I just asked, Mr.
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Wayan. The question is, maybe their problems aren't solved yet, Mr. Wayan. Today, maybe they didn't solve their problems; maybe they still have debts, still have issues with their partners, their children, or their finances.
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But in this break tonight, they feel, and I feel, we all feel more relieved.
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Yes. How does that mechanism work, and what can be carried over after feeling this to face the real problems that come after this, Guru? Please.
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Because, as in the slide earlier, Kang Abu, when we haven't learned, we feel others are to blame.
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Once we start learning, we feel we are the ones at fault. Now, if someone has NPD, they don't feel that way, Kang Abu . So, a person who is no longer NPD will start to feel they were wrong, and
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it turns out, once they've finished learning, they don't blame anyone because they have forgiven themselves.
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So, it means that while we are learning , even if we aren't finished, they have reached a point where they no longer blame themselves and have been able to accept themselves, apologize for feeling guilty, and apologize for what
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has been done. So, it means that, actually, in this short time, this lesson has made them finish with what happened in the past. But unfortunately, tomorrow, the day after, next week, next month, the same lessons will emerge again. And that might also
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bring up new feelings of guilt once more. Now, if what is taught today is also used for tomorrow every night before bed, or made into a moment of mindfulness for the days ahead, then what was achieved today—which I felt
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was lighter, lighter, lighter—will continue to be lighter in the future. Don't let today's pause only lighten what has already passed. But then the washing machine we are currently using, we put away. Just store it and stop using it. Then tomorrow's dirty laundry
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, and the day after's, will become a burden again. Hm. Essentially, tonight's meeting is a session to wash away the dirt from this morning and from the past. But tomorrow , it is definitely possible for us to make mistakes again, feel guilty again,
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feel this way again. So use what happened tonight to be applied every night before going to sleep. For what?
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Be grateful for what we have done well. Apologize for what we have done wrong.
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So, the message before sleep is like this. I am grateful for every good thing I have done in my life today. I am grateful for every good thing this life has given me throughout today.
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Second, I apologize for every bad thing I have done in my life today. I forgive every bad thing. that this life has done to me. Those four things will lead to a peaceful sleep. So do that every night. Then tomorrow we will feel light
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, feel light, feel light. Because our journal is not just written; we have already performed our daily journal before sleep. So that sleep becomes more comfortable, deeper, and the dreams are no longer bad. Why? Because we have released all our guilt today.
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Yes, today we played our role a bit wrong. It's ok. That is our shortcoming . That is our imperfection as human beings. Allow ourselves to feel wrong, but respect ourselves as we become better day by day. Keep going like that
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. But don't forget, the better we are tomorrow, it doesn't necessarily mean we have become better. What is" best " isn't what we call good today. Tomorrow we might see something bad. Like," Oh, why did I do that yesterday? "I should
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have given them 2,000 rupiah. That might be when we have billions in the bank.
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Hm. But at that moment, giving 2,000 was the best thing we could do. So every day we have done our best, respect that . Appreciate the best that we have done . Say thank you. then apologize and forgive, and it's finished. That will
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continue to make us feel lighter from day to day. Something like that. Cool, thank you, Guru. Let's give a round of applause for Pak Wayan. Pak Wayan, thank you very much. This is short but so relieving, Pak Wayan. And
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for anyone here who feels much more relieved, better, don't forget to celebrate a little.
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Yeah. Right. Because sometimes we think celebration has to be fancy, Pak Way. Has to be something grand. When feeling just a little bit better now.
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Wow. Let's celebrate by at least for a moment saying and feeling in our hearts gratitude and forgiveness for ourselves . Thank you, everyone. Thank you so much. Alright, Pak Wayan, I think everyone is full now. Our bedtime story
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has been very beautiful. There is something I would like to flow Kang. Oh yes, please, Guru. Let us all be silent once again. Silent to hear the message of the universe. Who knows, this will free us more from all these
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feelings of guilt. Be silent, surrender ourselves to the universe, and listen to what the universe says. My child, oh souls, do you still long for freedom and wish to be one with me? How will you find that freedom if you still
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imprison yourself with guilt? How will you ask for my forgiveness if you cannot even forgive yourself? My child, your true essence is a spark of my infinite universe. If you, as my small spark, cannot forgive yourself, how can
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I forgive you? If a fish does not allow its fins to be wet by water, how will the ocean allow it to swim freely in the sea? Eyes that close themselves to the light will never see the beauty
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within the light. Those who cannot forgive themselves will not be able to enjoy the happiness of my forgiveness for them. Whatever you want from me, always start from within yourself, my child. If you want my forgiveness, start by forgiving yourself now. If you
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want to be one with me, be one with yourself first. If you want to receive my love, love yourself first, my child.
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If you want to be united in freedom with me, free yourself first now from the prison of guilt you created for yourself in the past. I have been within you as you. Ask yourself for forgiveness if you still hope for
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forgiveness from me. Forgive yourself, my child. If you still hope for forgiveness from me, know yourself if you truly want to know me. Meet yourself within if you truly want to meet me who exists outside of you, my
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child, surrender everything to me. Because you are me. Free yourself from all guilt. Free yourself from the suppressed prison of your own secrets.
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There is nothing you can hide. Because your secrets are my secrets. My secrets are your secrets. Open up in forgiveness and love. I hope, friends, I hope all souls present and joining tonight can begin to carry out their
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life roles and tasks more lightly, more calmly, and more peacefully, so they are more open to welcoming the joyful blessings, no matter how small, that the universe will provide after today.
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Thank you very much. Suksma. Teacher. There are no words that can serve as a final statement for tonight, Teacher.
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Because that feeling will be the final statement for each of us, you know, friends. Thank you. Thank you, Teacher, for always making the time to offer yourself to be poured out for us. Thank you too, friends. We have become a
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community that truly wants to always be together. Wants to always grow and to learn. And I often say that one of life’s blessings is meeting friends who are on the same frequency. Where friends who are on the same frequency
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today are like finding a needle in a haystack. Let us all be fortunate, let us all be grateful, and thank you. I apologize for any physical or spiritual shortcomings. May there be guidance and grace. You have watched this video
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until the very end. I hope this video is useful for you and can make you better than you were yesterday. Stay tuned for our next video. Thank you.
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Not from Adam, Eve, a heavenly garden, or paradise. My place is placeless, my trace is traceless. Both my body and my soul, everything is the life of my Beloved. Yeah.
Topics:self-forgivenessspiritual growthmental healthguiltself-acceptanceempathytoxic perfectionismanxietydepressioninner peace
