My Writing Journey: Growth, Mistakes, and Insights. (my… — Transcript

L.S. Author shares honest reflections on their writing journey, discussing growth, mistakes, and insights from each book they've written.

Key Takeaways

  • Honest self-critique is essential for growth as a writer.
  • Early works may be imperfect but serve as important learning steps.
  • Writing style and thematic focus can evolve significantly over time.
  • Balancing dark themes with hope can create more meaningful stories.
  • Publicly sharing the writing process can inspire and help other writers.

Summary

  • The author openly critiques their books, highlighting both strengths and weaknesses.
  • Frozen Wrath was written during a health crisis, reflecting an amateurish style with poetic prose attempts.
  • Retaliation Mountain, the sequel, suffers from split focus and thematic unevenness.
  • Vipers in Red Rocks marks a turning point with improved prose and a more hopeful tone influenced by fatherhood.
  • Fire in the Tall Grass is the author's most proud work, praised for strong characters, themes, and prose.
  • Gunlaw is viewed as unsatisfactory and unfulfilled by the author.
  • The author emphasizes growth over time and the importance of honesty in self-review.
  • Themes evolve from dark and edgy to hopeful and heroic.
  • The video aims to offer insights and lessons to other writers.
  • The author is publicly documenting their journey to improve and connect with readers and writers.

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Speaker A
This video is potentially a very bad idea, I might be urged to take it down, we will see. I just think that maybe this could be helpful to another writer out there, maybe offer some insight, be a little cool.
00:12
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But I want to talk about the books I've written, give you my very, very honest reflections, thoughts, kind of reviews on them.
00:24
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And I'm going to be as honest as I possibly can, this is not just going to be me selling you on the book, I'm going to roast these books up as necessary.
00:39
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You know, give my critiques where necessary, because I don't think I'm a great writer yet.
00:46
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I'm in process, I'm trying to become a good writer and and I'm doing that publicly, obviously, so I'm willing to put myself out there.
00:55
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I'm willing to, you know, point the finger at myself as well, and that's what we're going to do here.
01:00
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I want to just go through these and offer maybe the insights and lessons that you as a writer could think about and and apply to yourself.
01:06
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So the first book, I don't have the cool updated copy, I have the first crummy edition.
01:14
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The cover is not good, and I think the cover itself kind of speaks to the main issue with Frozen Wrath.
01:20
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Is that I was a bit too amateurish, I didn't quite know what I was doing.
01:24
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But if you know me, I have this heart condition, there was this health crisis that really pushed me to want to write this book at that time.
01:36
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And say, you know, in case I don't make it, I really want to have been a writer in my time.
01:42
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I really want to have put something out.
01:45
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So, a bit before I was ready, a bit before I was prepared, a bit before I had the skill set.
01:53
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I set out on this journey and I put out Frozen Wrath.
01:56
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And I think, overall, I'm okay with this book, and, uh, you know, there was a time where I hated it and I wanted to take it down.
02:04
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But thematically and the characters within it, I'm cool with.
02:10
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It's the language itself that falls short for me.
02:14
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I think I was trying too hard to be poetic and trying too hard to be edgy.
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You know, thinking I was Cormac McCarthy or Taylor Sheridan or something, when I'm not.
02:25
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So that was kind of the biggest issue is not being, uh, a just solid enough writer yet.
02:32
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My prose was not there yet.
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So, that's that one.
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Retaliation Mountain is the sequel to Frozen Wrath.
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Picks up right where it leaves off.
02:42
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And this one, the issue with this one is that it is a short book, right?
02:50
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Just like Frozen Wrath.
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But Frozen Wrath is very singularly focused, it's it's Dante Gibbs trekking into the woods to find a boy, um, who has gone missing in the town.
03:04
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That's linked to the motorcycle club that he was, uh, that he founded back in the day.
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So it's very singularly focused and that helps build out the thematics.
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Helps build the character study, helps everything kind of cohesively work together.
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But for Retaliation Mountain, it's like I I discovered a character within this, Hunter Moss, that I ended up liking a bit more than I'm liked my main character.
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So the focus gets a bit split and it gets a little uneven and it gets a little unfocused.
03:30
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So I think I hurt this book thematically, um, and its kind of impact by splitting the focus.
03:39
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And if I were to do that correctly, this book would have to be double the size, you know what I mean?
03:46
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If it's going to be this narrow, you got to be, you got to be on it with what you're talking about.
03:51
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You can't just jump over here, oh, maybe this over here, maybe a little bit of this.
03:56
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Are they paralleled?
03:57
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I don't know.
03:58
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I think it's a bit messy, a bit unfocused.
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But I think probably a a slight improvement prose-wise from Frozen Wrath.
04:08
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But not much, because it wasn't too long after that I wrote this.
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Um, so I think that's still kind of in that amateur.
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Not quite ready to write a book phase.
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It's not until Vipers in Red Rocks, this third book that I wrote, that I think prose-wise I started to come into my own.
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Again, I I claim not to be a great writer.
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I'm I'm not saying I am, that's not what I'm saying.
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But I think this is when I kind of got up to code and up to standard for myself at least.
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Looking at it now, I can still be like, okay, yeah, that works.
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Maybe I'll look at it in five years and go, wow, the writing's terrible.
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Get away from me.
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We'll see.
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But I think writing-wise, I finally kind of came into my own with the prose.
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And with this one, again, it's back to being a bit more focused.
04:54
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It's like Frozen Wrath, I think it's almost like me re-attempting to do Frozen Wrath with a different style.
05:00
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Because I've talked about this in the past, there was a metamorphosis that happened with me between these two books and this one.
05:08
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Where I had a child, I had a son, and I looked back at these two books.
05:13
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That I had written trying to be too edgy and too dark and and pretending to be Cormac McCarthy.
05:20
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And I was like, look, I want to add something a little more hopeful, a little more optimistic, a little more heroic into my son's life.
05:26
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I want him to pick up my books and not get the impression the world is just dark, bleak sadness.
05:32
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I want him to pick up the book and see people fighting out of love and fighting, um, with a code.
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And if you, you know, if you read this book and take away that there is hope and, um, light in the world.
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That's better for me than, you know, picking this up and being like, do, wow.
05:53
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The world is really, really, really dark, um, and bad people have to do bad things.
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And good people have to do bad things.
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Like I didn't want to go down that route too much.
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So this one is kind of a bridge into a new style of writing for me where I wanted to discuss that, fighting out of love, fighting for love.
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Um, and being overall more hopeful, more optimistic, more in line with something you'd read in in Louis L'Amour.
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Something classically, uh, heroic, but not afraid to touch on the darker aspects of life.
06:24
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Because we don't want to be naive to that, right?
06:26
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Well, that brings us to Fire in the Tall Grass.
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And this is the book that I'm most proud of.
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This is the one book that I think I fully, like, I look at and I have no real complaints, no real issues with.
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I'm just happy with.
06:42
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I'm fulfilled with this one.
06:43
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Um, I think it hit the marks thematically, I think that the character is well, well realized and well drawn.
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And I think that my prose was finally to a level that is up to standard, up to code, you know what I mean?
06:55
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Again, not claiming I'm a great writer or anything.
06:58
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But I think this one, this works.
07:00
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As a whole, I'm overall very satisfied with this.
07:04
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This is why this is the one I pitched to everybody.
07:07
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And I'm like, hey, you if you're going to read anything I've ever written.
07:10
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Read Fire in the Tall Grass.
07:11
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Um, and if you haven't read it, Noah Redford is kind of this, um, he's a former World War I pilot.
07:19
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He's out in Africa doing some hunting and this mother and her son come up to him.
07:25
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And ask if if he will be willing to help them find, uh, the kid's father.
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Because he's been missing in this very dark area of the Congo that's not safe.
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And they need an escort.
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And so he, this good man, with solid values and virtues, and he's not going to let them, uh, you know, suffer when he can help.
07:46
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He does have the ability to help.
07:47
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So he does, he goes and helps, but when he gets there, he realizes he was not told the full truth.
07:52
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And what ensues is a very uncharted, Mummy with Brendan Fraser, Indiana Jones type high pulp adventure.
08:00
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Um, that I am happy with and satisfied with overall.
08:03
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But that brings me to to this last book.
08:06
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And I know Nathaniel, my co-host for the Men's Adventure Fiction podcast is screaming at me.
08:10
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I just have to be honest with everybody here and myself.
08:14
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Gunlaw, I'm just not satisfied with.
08:17
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And I don't, I'm not going to sit here and say like, I'm not going to try to roast it too too harshly.
08:24
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Because I know there was a time where I did that to Frozen Wrath, where I hated it more than I ended up hating it, if that makes sense.
08:30
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I just want to say that it doesn't feel fulfilled to me.
08:34
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There's something wrong, and I think the takeaway from writing's writer's perspective is that.
08:40
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There was so much going on in my time in my life at the time I was writing this.
08:45
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We were putting on a film festival, I we were shooting and writing and editing and doing all of our own production work for our short film that would be in the short film festival we were hosting.
08:55
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We were putting out like 10 books from 10 different authors at that time.
09:02
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I was doing the formatting, the editing, the the KDP listing, I was doing all of that for for that at the time.
09:10
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I was on a trip in uh to Disney with my family at the time.
09:17
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I was in a position, in no position, rather, to be writing.
09:22
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Um, this book and trying to get it out when I got it out.
09:25
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I was unfocused and chaotic and sporadic with my writing.
09:30
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So that really hurt this one, I think.
09:32
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What I wanted this to be was kind of the Lone Ranger elevated a bit.
09:39
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Like I wanted to give an updated modern, uh, example of a supremely high adventure Western.
09:44
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And I think I did give a high adventure Western, there's so much action, there's big set pieces.
09:50
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But where I'm upset with this book, where I feel like it's not fulfilled is unlike Frozen Wrath, unlike Fire in the Tall Grass.
09:58
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Unlike, um, Vipers in Red Rocks, and unlike Retaliation Mountain, for the first time ever, I feel like there's not a deeply drawn character.
10:08
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Um, Cole Hartnett is kind of just cardboard to me.
10:13
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He's kind of just flat and unremarkable.
10:15
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He's kind of generic.
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I don't know.
10:17
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And that's the one thing I'm I'm very unhappy with that.
10:22
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And so it's at this situation, at this juncture, uh, or whatever, as a writer, what do you do?
10:29
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With a book that you look back on, you go, oh, no.
10:31
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I dropped the ball.
10:32
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Because I think of someone like Sylvester Stallone, who I greatly admire and look up to.
10:37
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And he's inspired my writing career in so many ways.
10:40
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He's had some stinkers, right, he's got some movies that he looks back on and goes, oh, why did I do that?
10:45
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What did I do?
10:46
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Um, so it's like, how do you handle that?
10:50
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How do you handle a book that you don't like?
10:51
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Do I take it down off KDP?
10:52
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Do I, do I let the people who enjoy it just enjoy it and step back?
10:56
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I don't know.
10:57
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But I find it interesting, and I think, you know, this is what sparked me wanting to do this whole run.
11:01
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Because I've had some interesting back and forth with with my beliefs and understanding about myself as a writer.
11:06
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Like I said, there was a time where I almost took down Frozen Wrath and Retaliation Mountain entirely.
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And just let start fresh from Vipers.
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It's weird.
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I don't know.
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But ultimately, as a writer, you have to be willing to grow, um, to make mistakes, to fall and fail even in front of the public eye.
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If you're going to be putting out books.
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So that's what happened here, I think, I think.
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I know Nathaniel and other people might disagree, they might have had some fun with this book.
11:34
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I just feel like it was ultimately unfulfilled, it's left something to be desired.
11:39
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It was just a bit more hollow than I would like.
11:41
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Um.
11:42
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But it it's good, every every one of these things I said, it's all good, it all helps me learn and understand better what I want to do with my work.
11:50
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And and how I want to execute properly on on the next novel.
11:53
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And that's where, uh, the next thing I'm putting out is Noah Redford, too.
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I'm putting out a sequel there.
11:58
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Uh, technically a prequel.
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And I'm really happy with it so far.
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And I'm learning from my mistakes, and I'm not going to repeat some of the the issues that I've seen in my past work.
12:08
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So you're always getting better, hopefully, if you're able to look back with a critical eye.
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With an honest eye and and look at your writing truthfully.
12:15
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And so that's kind of it, I don't want to go on too much longer.
12:18
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And my kids are waking up anyway.
12:19
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I hope you got something out of this.
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Maybe you did, maybe you did not.
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But thank you for watching.
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And if you want to check out any of these books, I will link my Amazon author page down below.
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And, uh, till next time, I will see you guys.
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On the Men's Adventure Fiction podcast every Wednesday.
Topics:writing journeyauthor reflectionswriting growthself critiquebook reviewswriting insightsL.S. Authorcreative processliterary developmentwriting advice

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What is the main purpose of this video?

The video aims to provide honest reflections on the author's books, sharing growth, mistakes, and insights to help other writers.

Which book does the author feel most proud of?

The author is most proud of 'Fire in the Tall Grass,' citing strong characters, themes, and prose as reasons for satisfaction.

How does the author's writing style evolve throughout their books?

The author moves from an amateurish, poetic style to a more focused, hopeful, and heroic tone, especially after becoming a parent.

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