**i can't cope if i'm not reading — Transcript & Summary | SozAI**
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A reader vlogs about finishing The Hound of the Baskervilles, her morning reading routine, reading journal habits, and reflections on self-reflection and presence during a free period.

## Key Takeaways

- Reading and a slow morning routine help the creator feel present and self-aware.
- Strong characters and unanswered questions make detective fiction engaging.
- A physical reading journal is preferred over online reviews for her personal reflections.

## What the video covers

- The creator opens by mentioning she made a new friend after a 90-minute conversation with a girl.
- She is reading The Hound of the Baskervilles by Arthur Conan Doyle, with about 30-60 pages left, and enjoys its mystery and characters.
- She discusses the book's sprayed edges and notes left by the previous owner, who was also trying to solve the mystery.
- She reflects on how strong character writing lets readers predict characters' actions and sacrifices.
- She describes replacing her morning laptop habit with reading and writing down dreams, which she sees as grounding and cathartic.
- She plans to read more, set a goal of six books this month, and keep a physical reading journal rather than writing Goodreads reviews.
- She mentions painting the edges of The Night Circus and making cookies with a prepackaged mix.
- She talks about job searching, shopping plans, thrift store trips, and a rosemary water hair mist.
- She discusses The 39 Steps by John Buchan and reflects on pronouncing author names correctly.
- She finishes the Doyle book and says she has never watched a Hitchcock film, with further thoughts to come.

## Chapters

1. 00:00 New friendship and opening
2. 01:15 Reading The Hound of the Baskervilles
3. 02:35 Character writing and the mystery
4. 03:57 Morning routine and presence
5. 05:14 Journaling and self-reflection
6. 06:37 Detective novels and unanswered questions
7. 08:32 The 39 Steps and author pronunciation
8. 10:48 Shopping, thrifting, and wrap-up

Answers

## Questions about this video

What book is the creator reading in this video?

She is reading The Hound of the Baskervilles by Arthur Conan Doyle, which she started the day before and was nearly finished with, with about 30 pages left.

Why does she say she changed her morning routine?

She realized she was opening her laptop first thing in the morning, so she started reading and writing down dreams instead, which she finds cathartic and grounding.

What reading goal does she set?

She aims to finish her current book by the end of August so she will have read six books that month.

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00:12

Speaker A

I think I just made a new friend today. No, no promises and no pressure. I just talked to a girl for an hour and a half, and I just, I loved it. I loved it so much.

00:23

Speaker A

anything to say? So today I want to finish The Hound of the Baskerville, which I started yesterday, and I'm just so in love with it. I knew I just knew that I was going to like it. I did put

00:33

Speaker A

I know you liked her. Do you have anything to say?

00:44

Speaker A

keeping up with the detective stuff going on. I also have notes from the previous owner of this book, and I think she was trying to keep up with the mystery as well, trying to figure out who the killer is. Um,

00:57

Speaker A

So today I want to finish \*The Hound of the Baskervilles\*, which I started yesterday, and I'm just so in love with it. I knew I just knew that I was going to like it. I did put it off for like two weeks. I didn't have it in my August TBR, but I put it off for some reason for so long.

01:01

Speaker A

I'm not sure if these sprayed edges came like this from the publisher or if the girl that read it before me sprayed the edges herself, which is something that I did do with The Night Circus. I painted the edges black and it looks so

01:15

Speaker A

The notes that I'm taking are some really good ones. We have some philosophy, some keeping up with the detective stuff going on. I also have notes from the previous owner of this book, and I think she was trying to keep up with the mystery as well, trying to figure out who the killer is. Um, and it's really confusing me. But yeah, we're going to see. I love this cover.

01:33

Speaker A

way, and I didn't really feel like baking anything yesterday, but these are so good.

01:44

Speaker A

I'm not sure if these sprayed edges came like this from the publisher or if the girl that read it before me sprayed the edges herself, which is something that I did do with \*The Night Circus\*. I painted the edges black, and it looks so beautiful.

01:59

Speaker A

the characters and know what they would do and what they would give and what they would sacrifice to figure out what the answer is to the mystery. And I also feel like that requires a lot of skill from the writer. If a writer is so good

02:13

Speaker A

I made some cookies yesterday. Let me show them to you. They're so, so, so good. I want to have cookies and some tea, I think. Yeah, I want some tea. I did get a prepackaged mix. It just came out to be cheaper that way, and I didn't really feel like baking anything yesterday, but these are so good.

02:29

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right now. Maybe get 30 more pages read right now. I have something on my lips.

02:35

Speaker A

60 pages left. Things are getting pretty heated, I have to say. I thought that something was happening, and it was indeed true. This is the third book in the Sherlock Holmes series, right? So, I think that naturally I'm getting to know the characters and know what they would do and what they would give and what they would sacrifice to figure out what the answer is to the mystery. And I also feel like that requires a lot of skill from the writer. If a writer is so good as to make the characters feel human, you also get to kind of figure out how they would act.

02:55

Speaker A

This morning though, I started it by reading a few pages. That was nice. But usually, I would have started my morning by writing down the dreams that I had the night before. There's something cathartic in that and I feel like it

03:10

Speaker A

Arthur Conan Doyle. Sir Arthur Conan Doyle is a great, great writer. Don't sleep on him. Yeah, I'm going to try to read as much as I can right now. Maybe get 30 more pages read right now.

03:24

Speaker A

could be the perfect time to get to know myself in a different light because I get to stay at home and I get to read. I get to do whatever whatever I want for the next few months. Well, actually, I

03:34

Speaker A

I have something on my lips.

03:47

Speaker A

have to listen to this song. It's one of my favorite songs ever. My morning time is my time, okay? Nobody gets to take that away from me. And I feel like I'm starting to take it away from myself. I

03:57

Speaker A

I'm just loving it so much. I'm having so much fun. I realized recently that I haven't been focusing on being present. The moment I wake up, I just open the laptop, which is something that I don't want to do. This morning, though, I started it by reading a few pages. That was nice. But usually, I would have started my morning by writing down the dreams that I had the night before. There's something cathartic in that, and I feel like it brings you into the present, and it just makes you happy to be awake, depending on what kind of dream you had.

04:10

Speaker A

been giving myself. So, I'm going to take maybe 30 minutes to do that. And getting back to the book, I have less than 30 pages left to read of this. This is heavenly. I mean, if you don't like

04:21

Speaker A

Yeah. I don't know. I, I feel like I've been kind of avoiding myself without even meaning to, because I feel like right now this could be the perfect time to get to know myself in a different light, because I get to stay at home and I get to read. I get to do whatever, whatever I want for the next few months. Well, actually, I do need to look for a job. That's also a thing.

04:27

Speaker A

And by write down, of course, I mean screenshot them and put them in a new folder on my laptop. And I have been neglecting writing about the books that I've been reading in my reading journal.

04:37

Speaker A

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that I'm in a very privileged position right now, and I don't want to waste it by wasting my time, especially my morning time, which, by the way, you have to listen to this song. It's one of my favorite songs ever. My morning time is my time, okay? Nobody gets to take that away from me. And I feel like I'm starting to take it away from myself.

04:45

Speaker A

Anyway, I'm going to take some time to get a little closer to myself. What I love doing when I don't have any space in the margins to write a lot of words, I write them on a clear postit

05:14

Speaker A

I wrote a little bit in my journal. I just wrote really some very trivial things. I think I'm going to go a little deeper right now and try to figure out what I need from myself and what I haven't been giving myself. So, I'm going to take maybe 30 minutes to do that. And getting back to the book, I have less than 30 pages left to read of this. This is heavenly. I mean, if you don't like detective novels, I don't know what's wrong with you.

05:29

Speaker A

I love when I have questions that aren't answered up until the last page. I showed you before that I wrote this.

05:38

Speaker A

I do have to write down all the new words that I found in it. And by write down, of course, I mean screenshot them and put them in a new folder on my laptop. And I have been neglecting writing about the books that I've been reading in my reading journal. And I need to do that. That's the reason why I don't really give reviews on Goodreads, because I already write my own reviews in my reading journal.

05:53

Speaker A

would have been weird, like a loose thread. But he referred to it just now, and I have only literally one page left.

06:01

Speaker A

Anyway, I'm going to take some time to get a little closer to myself. What I love doing when I don't have any space in the margins to write a lot of words, I write them on a clear Post-it and put that on the page like this. Actually, I haven't read this page, so I'm going to put it on this page.

06:14

Speaker A

huge sale. I mean, I'm not going to have a huge sale on anything. Those guys are going to have a huge sale. The guys that I'm going to buy clothes from. But anyway, the thing is that tomorrow, because I'm going out of the house, I

06:27

Speaker A

I love when I have questions that aren't answered up until the last page. I showed you before that I wrote this. This was a question that was not answered at all. What the hell? And for me, it did not make any sense. If Sir Arthur Conan Doyle did not mention, did not allude to this question or an answer to this question at all, for me, this would have been weird, like a loose thread. But he referred to it just now, and I have only literally one page left.

06:38

Speaker A

I want to read a physical book. And I really don't know what to choose. These ones I already read. I'm trying to find maybe maybe a 300page book or less than 300 pages would be good. I was thinking

06:51

Speaker A

This is so fun. Okay, let's see what's happening. I already know who the killer is, of course. Yeah, we just got some more details to uncover, I guess.

07:02

Speaker A

This is the 39 steps by John Boen. Booken. No, actually, you know what? We need to pronounce author's names right.

07:09

Speaker A

I have decided that tomorrow I'm going to go thrifting because we're going to have a huge sale. I mean, I'm not going to have a huge sale on anything. Those guys are going to have a huge sale. The guys that I'm going to buy clothes from. But anyway, the thing is that tomorrow, because I'm going out of the house, I want to stop by a coffee shop to read. So, I want us to choose a physical book to read. I did already choose some books for September that I don't own, but I want to read at a cafe, which means that I want to read a physical book. And I really don't know what to choose. These ones I already read. I'm trying to find maybe a 300-page book or less than 300 pages would be good. I was thinking of Vonnegut, but I'm not sure that I want to read the Vonnegut right now. I think I need a little bit of a pause from his books.

07:24

Speaker A

notes on the book. Well, actually, I don't really know that. They might have first read the book, then watched the film, and then reread the book. So, I should stop making assumptions. But this is a book that I bought very recently. I

07:37

Speaker A

This is \*The 39 Steps\* by John Buchan. Buchan. No, actually, you know what? We need to pronounce authors' names right.

07:48

Speaker A

film. I have read 10 pages of The 39 Steps by John Ban. I don't know what everybody's talking about with this.

07:55

Speaker A

Alfred Hitchcock made a film after this book, and the person that had this book before me has watched the film first and then read the book. And you might wonder how I know that. They left a bunch of notes on the book. Well, actually, I don't really know that. They might have first read the book, then watched the film, and then reread the book. So, I should stop making assumptions. But this is a book that I bought very recently. I think I bought it this month, in August. It has 120-something pages, but the writing is a little smaller than usual. I haven't heard good things about this book. I don't know. I want to give it a chance because I want to watch the film.

08:06

Speaker A

before me wrote down some stuff about the movie. I keep getting spoiled and I'm referring to the movie here. Okay, we got a little interrupted. Hey. Yeah.

08:16

Speaker A

I have read 10 pages of \*The 39 Steps\* by John Buchan. I don't know what everybody's talking about with this. This book is not that great. I think the writing is simple and beautiful. It kind of lost me in the beginning. Honestly, it didn't even have me, and it lost me.

08:29

Speaker A

film first which at this point I'm absolutely sure of they keep on spoiling me on the movie because the movie is kind of different from the book. For example, there's this one character that can't talk properly in the book. This

08:42

Speaker A

I told you that the person that read this before me wrote down some stuff about the movie. I keep getting spoiled, and I'm referring to the movie here. Okay, we got a little interrupted.

08:56

Speaker A

experience like this before. This is a totally new unique experience to me and a very specific situation that I am in right now with this book. Again, the writing is really good. I've only read 10 pages. Don't get too excited, but I

09:11

Speaker A

Hey. Yeah. Did you give Mommy a kiss?

09:23

Speaker A

through it faster. Actually, we didn't even take a second to appreciate this cover. Does this collection have a name?

09:29

Speaker A

What I was saying, the person that read this book before me took many notes in the margins. Well, actually, not many. I think in total we have a maximum of 15 notes, maybe, because they watched the film first, which at this point I'm absolutely sure of, because they keep on spoiling me on the movie, because the movie is kind of different from the book. For example, there's this one character that can't talk properly in the book. This person wrote in the margins that, well, you know, in the movie this character actually has another defect, which is the fact that he's missing half of his finger or something. It's intere

09:59

Speaker A

to just walk my legs around. I couldn't find anything at thrift. That wasn't the only thrift that I went to. I also went to another thrift after that and they didn't have anything. Plus, I could barely even stay in there because it

10:12

Speaker A

just smelled so bad. And then I went to a third thrift store that was closed, actually. So, no luck today. And that's fine. I won't go to the thrift for the next two weeks because I don't feel like

10:24

Speaker A

going through this again. I I just want to focus on some other things. But it wasn't a complete fail cuz I did go to like a natural grocery store and I bought some stuff that I've been really wanting to get. I got some soy. I'm

10:38

Speaker A

thinking of making some pasta with this rice flour and it was very cheap at my usual grocery store. This is maybe like $5 or six or $7 and this was $2. Some ground cardamom which I will use to make

10:54

Speaker A

coffee with. I first had cardamom coffee when I went to Amsterdam. That was 5 years ago almost when I went to a Beach Bit concert and it was one of the greatest times and I really did enjoy that coffee a lot. It was as if this

11:09

Speaker A

whole universe opened up to me. And then I bought this. Wait, let me see what it's called in English. I forgot. I remembered without even having to look it up. I was starting to look it up, but then I remembered. So, trust me. Trust

11:21

Speaker A

me. It is all in here. Castor oil. I used castor oil when I was a kid. I think on my eyebrows, but I'm planning to use it in other ways now. I just have to do my research. And last but not

11:32

Speaker A

least, I have been wanting this mist thing for a while. And this is glass, which is amazing. I do have some leftover from other products, but I just wanted a clear one. And I might put rosemary water in here for my hair or

11:54

Speaker A

rice water for my skin. I should have bought more maybe. But I just love it. I love the way it looks and I love that it is made of glass. That was my haul.

12:04

Speaker A

Unfortunately, today we have no thrift haul. Trust me, I'm crying about it inside. I didn't even get to read. I was at the cafe and then there was this guy that was talking to me and I was trying

12:15

Speaker A

to tell him that I wanted to read, but then he kept on talking and I was like, "Okay, you know what? I'm I'm going to have this cigarette with you and then I'm going to go." I didn't want to talk

12:24

Speaker A

to him at all, but honestly, I was kind of scared to just tell him to leave me alone. It's very delicate these situations. He seemed to me like he didn't mean any harm. I really just wanted to read and I couldn't. I think I

12:39

Speaker A

read a total of maybe seven pages because then I stopped at the spark to read and I read one or two more pages in there. But I'm really enjoying the book.

12:49

Speaker A

I want to finish it tomorrow. I want to finish it by the end of August so that I will have read six books this month. I really wanted to make those cookies again, but for that I need to go to the

13:00

Speaker A

grocery store, which is a 10-minute walk, and I don't really feel like it cuz I just came back from the outside world.

13:45

Speaker A

station. Seems like the theme for today is restlessness. I just woke up and I I don't know. I feel like doing so many things, but I don't really want to do everything that I have to do. I'm really

14:12

Speaker A

thinking of picking up um The Artist's Way by Julia something. Julia Cameron. I heard of this book so many times and I'm sure you have too probably. I just feel like I need a lot of inspiration for the

14:27

Speaker A

amount of energy I have in me to do stuff. I actually picked up this book this morning and I wanted to read a little bit, but then I realized I don't feel like reading. I want to do something. So

14:38

Speaker A

then I thought I could help a friend with something. So I did that for like 15 minutes. Now I want to want to journal, but also I have something to do. I don't know. I feel this sense of

14:49

Speaker A

urgency. You know what? Actually, I just realized it's helping me so much to talk to the camera because I realized that the thing that I should do right now is close my laptop. I think my laptop is a

14:59

Speaker A

distraction right now. I just keep going from page to page, from browser to browser without a a goal in mind at all.

15:05

Speaker A

I'm going to close it and I'm going to write in my journal and then I'm going to see what I'm going to do. Oh, it's just I don't know how to deal with it. I feel like I want to do so many things

15:16

Speaker A

and I don't I'm not inspired enough but I it's like my body doesn't want to stop but my mind is not in that creative space. You know I feel like my body is but my mind isn't. I don't know how that makes any

15:34

Speaker A

sense to me but that's just exactly how I feel. I've been feeling this way for a week at this point. Maybe if I'm feeling the vibe tonight after I finish The 39 Steps, I'm actually going to watch the

15:44

Speaker A

movie as well with my boyfriend. It will be, I think, my first Hitchcock movie.

15:48

Speaker A

I've never watched a Hitchcock movie before. I finished the book. Some more thoughts on it later. I don't have it near me right now. I left it in the kitchen, but it was good. It was better than I

16:19

Speaker A

expected. If you want to read it, I really recommend it. It was such a a unique experience for me to read a book that was annotated by a person that watched the movie first. Now, I can't wait to watch the movie. I already know

16:33

Speaker A

50% of the movie because that person already spoiled it for me. Yeah, I'm very happy that I finished that book.

16:39

Speaker A

Six books in August. That's amazing. I still have two days left of August. It's August 29th. So, can we read another book in two days? Do you think? Do you think? Well, it is possible if I choose a short book. We'll see.

16:52

Speaker A

Title did understand as this title does now. And they think they should start fitness channels. They think You can see it there that the wind is flowing and I feel so good right now. I cleaned Five's litter box. It took me 30

17:16

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minutes to clean the whole thing. And while I was cleaning it, he peed in the place his litter box was supposed to be.

17:23

Speaker A

And I want to shower because after showering, I want to watch my own private Idaho. I want to do my nails in a way that I haven't done them for probably 12 years. But yeah, that's what I'm gonna do. And then we're making

17:39

Speaker A

crips because I bought this amazing jam. It is an apricot jam. It's sugar-free. Um, there's been a change of plans. As you saw, I already started watching my own private Idaho and I not really liking it that much. So, I'm thinking

18:24

Speaker A

that I should start a book now. I'm going to show you my nails a lot more.

18:27

Speaker A

I'm so proud of them and they're not going to last too long. I um already [ \_\_ ] this one up. Anyway, so I want to start reading a book while I'm eating.

18:38

Speaker A

Doesn't matter the length. Something that I want to read. Shut up. What about a Sherlock Holmes? The Valley of Fear. Wait, what? These aren't the Valley of Fear. Did I buy The Valley of Fear? Oh my god. Okay. The Valley.

18:59

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Did I not buy it? Cuz I bought them in order. The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes. The return of Sherlock Holmes.

19:06

Speaker A

The Memoirs of Sherlock Holmes. I just realized that I'm too hungry to look for it. I am going to check my order history to see if I did buy it before I go through all these books. So, I am going

19:16

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to watch my private my own private Idaho while I read because again, I'm I'm too hungry to wait. I hope I did get that book. Otherwise, I have to buy it now.

19:34

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And I hope that somebody forgives the people that have swayed your fond thoughts away from me. This is my good.

19:46

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This is the one that I would love to get. They don't have it in stock anymore. And by the way, of course, I checked and I did not buy it. It's the same collection as the 39 steps that I

19:57

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just finished. Do you see what I'm talking about? Look at the design. The class on this cover is immaculate. I'm so sad. And I can't actually find a copy at all. I mean, I could buy a new copy,

20:10

Speaker A

but I want a used copy with a cool cover. It's bugging me. But you know what? I did subscribe to some editions, so if they're back in stock, they're going to let me know. It's sad. that I really wanted to read some Sherlock

20:23

Speaker A

Holmes. I was just journaling earlier and I realized that I would want to end the vlog here. I feel like I'm in a limbo because I don't have anything to edit and I just really want to start editing

21:00

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something and I'm going to start another vlog tomorrow. I am going to read The Memory Police tonight before bed. I'm so excited. I'm going to make myself some tea and I'm going to have a great time.

21:11

Speaker A

What are you doing? I have heard many things about this book before. I heard that it's good. I don't believe Charlie Kaufman would get himself involved with a bad book. I think I was apprehensive about starting it just because of the

21:23

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title because it it seems to me that it's a very childish title. In the past few days, I've been really getting into reading a lot more, which is not to say that I wasn't already into reading, but I I think I'm just starting to enjoy

21:40

Speaker A

sitting in bed and reading for hours. And this is something that I used to do a lot as a teenager. I was always in bed reading and I feel like now I'm getting back into that and it feels so good.

21:51

Speaker A

Thank you for being here. I hope you did enjoy this little vlog of mine. I'm not sure how it's going to go. Whenever I film a vlog and, you know, just film my days, whatever. Pick up the camera in

22:04

Speaker A

really random moments. I I sometimes think about the fact that I don't have enough footage or my footage is actually trash or I don't talk about anything interesting. But then when I get to editing, it feels a little better. But I

22:20

Speaker A

I think this is why I'm so eager to start editing just because I'm eager to see exactly what I'm going to make of this. I hope you enjoyed this. I hope you have a great day, week, year, and I

22:32

Speaker A

hope you take care of yourselves. And yeah, have a good one.

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